Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Forever

I always said that forever is just a word..that I don't believe in forever and yet I want one. I say that I don't believe in happily ever after and yet I want one. I secretly hoped and thought that each one of us have their love story, the kind that you see in the movies or read in novels. I figured that we just had to wait it out and sooner or later it will come. All I know is that we all deserve that kind of love, the forever kind...and that we should never settle.

Meet the Fockers

Last night he asked me if I ever thought of why I loved him. I never really did, I try to though. Whenever I try to explain to my friends and colleagues the connection that we have, I sometimes find myself thinking that the words I choose aren't enough. You try to put into words the physical, emotional and spiritual connection you have together and yet the words are not enough.

This Friday he will formally introduce me to his family. As he is expected to make a short speech, this task has made him wonder how one can measure how much you love a person. I used to think this too, but since I usually laugh at sap and sentimentality, I never really voiced it out loud. In front of all the people, his father and my people, he will declare his love and respect for me. As I was worrying about the pressure this will have on him, I was surprised that he simply smiled and said he would do anything for me. Facing a crowd is nothing, he is simply worried that the words may not be enough to express how deeply he feels about me. I really didn't know what to say to that or how to feel. I guess it emphasized the fact that I had to be true to my feelings. Honesty, he says, honesty, trust and communication is what will help us make this relationship work. And as I know that I have major issues in both trust and communication, I know that he will hold my hand and stand by me as we go through the trials life will throw at us.