Bothered

I just attached the song of il Divo to my blog, and though I know that Popsiccal (a.k.a. a combination of pop and classical) tunes is an acquired taste, this particular song I really like. What can I say? I'm just as vain as the next guy. Let's just say this song means something. Anyway, I can always choose not to hear it. I'm actually one of those that get annoyed when I visit someone's blog then the music starts blaring, I get turned off and just leave the freaking site.

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I spoke with my uncle yesterday, actually chatted with him. He's based in Houston where he's taking his 107th degree in one of their Universities. We were talking about his dad, he's in his 70s and he likes to talk about death and being in the 4th quarter of his life. I spent the weekend at their house but not once did I go out, I just watched TV and slept (major couch potato at work), while his dad kept going out on lunches and dinner dates with his friends.

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Anyway, my point is, I told my uncle that his dad had more of a life than I did. He said that I had no life at all to begin with. Not until I leave this god forsaken country and leave for abroad like the rest of my fellow countrymen would that even be remotely possible. That bothered me, never mind the fact that I could be exaggerating it a bit. But I mean, I'm not exactly averse to the idea of leaving my country, in fact I have been whining myself to death for the past two years about how I want to do exactly that. But what bothered me was that fact that he was right. I don't have a life. Like I have put everything on hold till I do get out of here and then that's when I start living my life. What the hell is wrong with me? Ok whatever, I will not even start dwelling on the innumerable ways of how fucked up I am, I shall just leave it at that.

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I'm bothered.

He Conquers Who Endures

~ Persius, Roman satirist and philosopher

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"Life doesn't always work as well as we'd like, and despite our greatest efforts, sometimes our best-laid plans go awry. It's at times like these that we must believe in ourselves more than ever. We have to choose to believe we will make it through, past, and over any and every obstacle; that no matter what, we will succeed. For it is only when we make this choice to believe that in spite of everything we will make it, that life agrees, once more, to conspire with us, and our chances of making our dreams come true are infinitely increased."

Beautiful

The dressing room of Mariah Carey was featured in In Style. Although everything was immaculate, it was the picture of all her shoes that left me in awe. Now this, people, is my new goal in life!

Watch Your Ass

The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it Won again. The local paper read:

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PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT

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The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he Ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race. The next day, the local paper headline read:

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BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTOR'S ASS.

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This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearbyconvent. The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline the next day:

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NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN.

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The bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey, so she sold it to a farmer for $10. The next day the paper read:

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NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10.

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This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild. The next day the headlines read:

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NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE

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The bishop was buried the next day.

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The moral of the story is....being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery...and even shorten your life. So be yourself and enjoy life... Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll be a lot happier and live longer!

Whales!

My best friend and I attended one of those hoity toity fundraisers for coral reefs conservation. It was ok, the best part was that the wine was free flowing but other than that it was pretty obvious that the organizer was an amature at these things. Actually I know this for a fact since we work in the same office and they're my friends. Haha!

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The best part about this event I guess was that my bestfriend and I won some stuff. Okay, I won the grand prize and she won a free 3 day stay at one of the high end resorts. Yes, I won the grand prize. I know, I don't sound very enthusiastic about it. Well...it's not that I don't like it. Hey, it's free so that alone is something that makes me happy. What exactly did I win? Well, I won an all expense paid trip for 2 to go diving with whale sharks. The clincher here is that the prize also includes the service of an underwater video photographer. This would be great since she's going to be filming my trip ala MTv style and she's supposedly really good. The only thing that's bothering me is that my prize is not valid till March next year and well, let's face it, I'm not exactly known for long term planning or long-term anything for that matter.

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But hey, I won the grand prize! I've never won first prize for anything so this is for the books. I'm happy to be able to go diving again as I haven't gone in awhile. I'm just going to have to find the courage to approach these whales so goodluck to me! Overall though, I'm glad we got to go. Not only did the coral reefs benefit from us, but we benefitted from them as well. God save the coral reefs!

Lost Souls

"At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared, some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day, others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good and some are good, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls and sometimes all you need is 1."

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a quote from One Tree Hill, I'm not exactly a fan but I really like this quote so I thought I'd post it here...

Tag, you're it!

I tagged myself. I can't help it, it's contagious. I don't usually like doing this things, I find it too cheesy, but then you read another person's blog, and you feel like doing the same thing too. Happens all the time. Anyway, it's my blog so you can mind your own business if you don't like it.

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ABOUT YOURSELF

Eye color: Dark brown

Hair color: I'm not sure, I keep changing it, somewhere between black and brown with some streaks...I think.

Piercing: Three on each ear (I'm tempted to get one on my tongue but I think I'm too old for that)

Tattoos: None (I'm tempted to get one too, but I'm too chicken!)

Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Nope, none. I'm not sure I'm ready but there's gotta be somebody out there, right?

Overused phrase: Whatever/Seriously. (Whichever works for the moment)

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FAVORITES

Food: Japanese food. Love, love, love it!

Candy: Orange Tic Tacs (They're white but orange flavored)

Number: 1

Color: Purple

Animal: Dogs. (The real ones, not those wimpy toy dogs carried by Paris Hilton wannabes)

Drink: Iced Tea

Alcoholic drink: Vodka or Tequila

Letter: IC

Body part of opposite sex: Where do I start???

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THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: Coke (Gotta kick the habit though)

McDonalds or Jollibee: I like the fries in MCDonalds but I like everything else in Jollibee.

Strawberry or watermelon: Strawberry. (Except for my hand sanitizer, it's kiwi Melon. Is that the same??)

Hot tea or iced tea: Iced tea

Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate but I prefer whit chocolate

Hot chocolate or coffee: Hot chocolate

Kiss or hug: Both

Dog or cat: Dogs, I can't stand cats.

Rap or punk: Punk

Summer or rainy season: Rainy season. I just wanna curl up in bed and feel lazy.

Scary movies or funny movies: Funny. I can tolorate scary movies but be ready to be attacked if you watch with me! You'll end up bruised.

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YOUR…

Bedtime: 2 am

Most missed memory: Not having a care in the world.

Best physical feature: I'm not sure I have one. Hahaha

First thought after waking up: "Five more minutes!"

Goal for this year: Be emotionally stable.

Weakness: Shoes, shoes, shoes!

Fears: Knives

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HAVE YOU…

Ever drank: Duh, yeah.

Ever smoked: Occasionally. Trying to quit now.

Ever been drunk: Uh, yeah.

Ever been kissed: Seriously.

Ever been in love: Unfortunately, yes. Just once, I'm not planning on repeating that mistake anytime soon though. (No. I am not bitter!)

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IN A GUY

Favorite eye color: Blue. Sigh. I Wish! Haha. Anything. Doesn't matter.

Favorite hair color: Brownish?..Whatever, doesn't matter.

Short or long hair: Doesn't really matter as long as he doesn't look like a slob.

Height: Definitely has to be taller than me

Style: I like em rockin' and I like em clean and smart. Again, as long as he isn't a slob, please.

Looks or personality: Personality, hands down.

Hot or cute: Hotttt.

Drugs and alcohol: Uhm... hehehe. Don't make me answer this one.

Muscular or skinny: Neither. Muscular guys give me the creeps and skinny guys, well they look kinda funny.

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RANDOMS:

Number of regrets in the past: 2 (1, some guy I shouldn't have hooked up with. 2, where I went to college, I shouldn't have let my family have any control over that)

What country do you want to visit: Italy! Greece! Switzerland!

How do you want to die: Doesn't matter as long as I've made my peace with things.

Do you like thunderstorms: No, not really. I lik the rain that comes with it though.

Health freak: Nope, not really.

Do you think you're attractive: Do I have to answer that?? I don't know, sometimes.

Believe in yourself: Hah!I think I over do it. I've actually been getting sooo much flak for doing so!

Do you smoke: Yes, occasionally. Hasn't this been asked already?

Do you drink: Yes, occasionally. This one, too!

Shower daily: Once or twice

Been in love: As I said, unfortunately yes.

Do you sing: Nope.

Do you dance: Yes!

Want to get married: I'm not sure yet.

Want to have kids: I'm not sure about this one either.

Age to lose virginity: Huh? Hey whatever works for you, man. It's your life and your virginity to lose.

Do you hate anyone: Uhm, no...not really. Almost, but not quite.

Solitude

My friend took this picture. And as I am not exactly in the mood to get philosophical and write about some mundane thoughts on my life, I decided to post it as is and share it with the world. It provokes a lot of thoughts on its own I think, so I hope it's as good for you as it was for me.

Faith

As I was flipping thru the channels last night, Faith Hill and Tim Mcgraw were guests of Oprah.
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I was thinking that despite they're celebrity status they seem to come off as the real deal. And in this day and age being 'real' is something of a big deal.
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I remember Oprah saying that people were in awe of them as they inspire hope, hope that relationships can work out. For someone like me, it seems hope is all there is. That and faith.

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I grew up in a family that never really put much stock in relationships, at least not enough to make it last, being happily married is nothing but an oxymoron. The thing is, not having good examples growing up doesn't exactly inspire confidence in relationships. (Probably why I suck at them big time!) Now, there isn't really any tangible proof that I'm screwed up, you just have to take my word for it really. Yet, I realized that I have been trying to cope by looking at outside sources to stand as my inspiration, that I have been psycho-analyzing every decision I make, decisions that over people make even. And as I continue watching the Oprahs and Faith Hill of this world, I can't hlp but wonder whether I'm going in the right direction.

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Who knows right? Oh well.

Books Galore

I went to a book fair this weekend.
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It was actually pretty cool, it made me feel so grown-up!
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If not for the fact that my heels were three inches high I probabaly would have a really great time. Or the fact that there were more text books and religious books than a simple person like me could appreciate, I probably would have a really great time. Or if it wasn't for the sweltering heat, I probably would have a really great time.
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Who am I kidding?! The highlight of that trip is that we had some really good milkshakes and french fries after. Yum!

The Touch of Bhe

My friend and I went to the spa last weekend. Seriously, it's a good and reputable place. Overall it was pretty relaxing if not for one of the attendants who was in charge of the scrubs. When we first got into the torture chamber lookiing room for this scrub she decided to give off this obviously memorized spiel. It was hilarious! "You will have smooth and silky skin ma'am", she said in this sing song voice.

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But, nice as I am I would just giggle and ignore. Say uh-huh, ok. At the end of our session she went into another spiel. "So ma'am, if you liked the touch of Bhe, you could always request for my services and I will wait for you when you arrive." She said again in that somewhat irritating sing song voice of hers.

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For a short instance, I considered the chance that she might have some lesbian tendencies. Possibly.

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The touch of Bhe...Gee, talk about creepy!

Business Proposal

Johnny wanted to have sex with a girl in his office...but she belonged to someone else...

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One day Johnny got so frustrated that he went up to her and said I'll give you a $100 if you let me have sex with you.

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The girl said, " NO."

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Johnny said, " I'll be fast, I'll throw the money on the floor, you bend down, and I'll be finished by the time you pick it up."

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She thought for a moment and said that she would have to consult her boyfriend.

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She called her boyfriend and told him the story. The boyfriend said, "Ask him for $200, then pick up the money very fast. He won't even be able to get his pants down." She agreed and accepted the proposal.

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Half an hour went by and the boyfriend was waiting for his girlfriend to call. Finally after 45 minutes the boyfriend called and asked what happened..

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She said, "The bastard used quarters!"

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Management lesson: Always consider a business proposal in it's entirety before agreeing to it and getting screwed!

Shoes!

I took the day off yesterday to take care of some chores. I got the cable fixed, I got my shower heater installed and I got my locks changed. I also got a new deadbolt lock installed. Looking at all those locks from the inside of my apartment, I couldn't help but ask myself if I was turning into a pranoid psycho b*tch. But after all was done I was satisfied so why question it.

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Anyway, I decided to go to one of those shopping centers to buy a friend a birthday present. As soon as I got to the place, I was overcome with a surge of adrenaline rush and it felt like I haven't shopped for ages. In reality, it hasn't been that long, only maybe a couple of months since I had to pay off the dentist and move to a new apartment. But I'm tlling you, I swear, I felt like an addict on a high going through all the goodies.

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One of the sales ladies said in this loud voice, "Ma'am! Buy from me and I will give you an incredible discount!"

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Incredible huh? Well, incredible or not, I went home with a couple of new shirts, a new bag and best of all a new pair of shoes! Yes shoes!

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I was so happy with those shoes that I could hardly sleep last night.

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Yes, shoes make me happy. *sigh*

Dear Mr.President

- Pink featuring Indigo Girls
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Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly
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What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud
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How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why
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Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
How can you say
No child is left behind
We're not dumb and we're not blind
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pay the road to hell
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What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine
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How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
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Let me tell you bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
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How do you sleep at night
How do you walk with your head held high
Dear Mr. President
You'd never take a walk with me
Would you

Pink

I've never been a fan of Pink. But upon hearing this song this morning I think I just might change my opinion. She may come off a bit strong but at least she is using her fame for somthing good. That's more than I could say for those people who are being paid to DO good.

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I've never been a person who enjoyed talking about politics. I've always felt that there are facts not known to the public and that as good leaders, they are making well informed decisions. I've always had reservations stating my political views, I wouldn't want to come out as ignorant but also I know that there are just things that you cannot pass judgement on. Especially if your only basis for this judgement is the media.

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This does not mean though that all is right. In fact, I believe it's the opposite. The oppression that plagues the world saddens me. It's sad how sometimes we take things for granted. The war for example, as people take sides, we forget that no matter what happens, the moment a single bullet is fired, nobody wins.The person that dies will always be somebody's son, father or brother. This then would create a never ending cycle of hate and revenge. But if we all just stop for a minute, stop pointing fingers at each other, and be quiet for a minute. Maybe then we would remember what we are, that we are just people trying to live our lives the best way we know how. I've always believed that one's freedom ends where another one's freedom begins. Respect. It comes down to that.

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Listen to this song and you will know what I mean. Don't just listen though, let it flow freely to your heart and soul, absorb it and you will understand. And maybe, just maybe make you face the facts of the world, make you realize what the world has come to. And hopefully that will be a start, for all of us to get off our ass and reach out to others and make a good difference.

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This song reflects makes a strong statement not only for the president of the United States but every persons being, every other dirty politician, every person in power, taking advantage of their position, stealing, and as the song says, paving their way to hell.

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I don't know, but for me, this song is a reminder that the world is much bigger than us. That there's just so much out there if only we take the time to look.

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Sadness

Last night, I had myself a good cry.

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I've been feeling really down for the past few days. And it doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I'm broke or that I haven't been well for the past two weeks...well, maybe a little bit. But seriously, for the past few days now I find myself thinking about things.

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I thought about the people that I've lost, why I've lost them. The choices I have made, the person I am today. The discontentment that I feel, what it would be like to just walk away from it all.

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Whatever it is that has been bothering me, I hope I get over it soon.

Movin Up!

sunset outside my window

I spent the weekend moving to my new apartment. It wasn't as painful as I thought it would be since my friends came over to help. I was quite lucky since I didn't have to move that far and unpacking turned out ok. I'm now trying to settle in, it's still difficult to sleep at night since I'm not used to the place and I keep getting up every two hours. Don't you just hate that?! I mean, I don't get enough sleep as it is and now I have to worry about adjusting to the new place.

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I threw out a lot of my junk and it feels good. I feel lighter somehow. I look forward to somewhat being able to settle in. My problem really is that secretly, I have this thing about attachments. I don't like getting attached to anything or anyone. I feel like I have to be able to go anywhere and leave everything without anything holding me down.

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Maybe someday I will be able to analyze it and find a way to get over it. But for now, I'm simply content with what it is I have...or don't have for that matter.

Choices

"We are confronted with choices everyday, they are not always easy, or safe, but each choice that is placed before us has the potential to shape us into the people that we were created to be."

20 Ways to Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity

1. At lunch time, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.

2. Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.

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3. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.

4. Put your garbage can on your desk and label it "In."

5. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addictions, switch to Espresso.

6. In the memo field of all your checks, write "For sexual favors"

7. Finish all your sentences with "in accordance with the prophecy."

8. Dont use any punctuation

9. As often as possible, skip rather than walk.

10. Ask people what sex they are. Laugh hysterically after they answer.

11. Specify that your drive-through order is "To go."

12. Sing along at the opera.

13. Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme

14. Put mosquito netting around your work area and play tropical sounds all day.

15. Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.

16. Have your co-workers address you by your wrestling name, Rock Hard.

17. When the money comes out the ATM, scream "I won!, I won!"

18. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling "run for your lives, they're loose!!"

19. Tell your children over dinner, "Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go."

20. Share this list with someone else to make them smile..Its called therapy...