Happy new Year

As the clock struck twelve midnight signaling the start of 2006 last year, I remember telling myself that 2006 would be a good year for me. I was letting go of all that stupid angst and dramas in my life.
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I was taking control.
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Today I look back and feel like everything just passed me by so quickly. I've been consumed by all the bad things going on around me, trying to survive, that I guess I forgot to really live my life. I guess that's part of the reason why I don't like the Christmas season so much. It makes you take stock of things, blessings as well as failures.
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Too be honest though...I feel like the end is near for me. No, nothing morbid! I'm too much of a bitch to dwell on such pathetic sel-pity. I save that for special occassions. I just mean that I'm feeling that I'm about to give up and walk away from all of it soon. I'm trying to hang in there just so I don't do anything I'll regret but as I said, the end is near. I feel like a new chapter of my life is about to happen and if I don't get off my ass then I might live to regret it.
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The thing is, just like all good plans, perfect timing and execution is important. Without that, then you just might end up looking like a spoiled brat.
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Oh well..

Moving On

A whole month.

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I haven't posted anything for a whole month. Ok, the truth is they blocked my blogger in the office and well...that sorta depressed me in a way.

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You see, it's like there's a war. And you never let your enemy find out your weakness. Well, they found out I blogged and they took that away. It pissed me off coz blogging helped me cope with the shittiness of it all. But what's done is done.

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It's sad when you have to wake up everyday and you feel like shit. It's no joke when you work with people who are probably spawns of the devil himself. I can't imagine how you can sleep at night when you are such a spiteful person. What a waste of space. But there's nothing I can do for now I guess except bitch about it. Life goes on.

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Let's just hope I still have enough strength to get through this.