Dear Mr.President

- Pink featuring Indigo Girls
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Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly
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What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud
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How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why
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Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
How can you say
No child is left behind
We're not dumb and we're not blind
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pay the road to hell
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What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine
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How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
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Let me tell you bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh
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How do you sleep at night
How do you walk with your head held high
Dear Mr. President
You'd never take a walk with me
Would you

Pink

I've never been a fan of Pink. But upon hearing this song this morning I think I just might change my opinion. She may come off a bit strong but at least she is using her fame for somthing good. That's more than I could say for those people who are being paid to DO good.

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I've never been a person who enjoyed talking about politics. I've always felt that there are facts not known to the public and that as good leaders, they are making well informed decisions. I've always had reservations stating my political views, I wouldn't want to come out as ignorant but also I know that there are just things that you cannot pass judgement on. Especially if your only basis for this judgement is the media.

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This does not mean though that all is right. In fact, I believe it's the opposite. The oppression that plagues the world saddens me. It's sad how sometimes we take things for granted. The war for example, as people take sides, we forget that no matter what happens, the moment a single bullet is fired, nobody wins.The person that dies will always be somebody's son, father or brother. This then would create a never ending cycle of hate and revenge. But if we all just stop for a minute, stop pointing fingers at each other, and be quiet for a minute. Maybe then we would remember what we are, that we are just people trying to live our lives the best way we know how. I've always believed that one's freedom ends where another one's freedom begins. Respect. It comes down to that.

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Listen to this song and you will know what I mean. Don't just listen though, let it flow freely to your heart and soul, absorb it and you will understand. And maybe, just maybe make you face the facts of the world, make you realize what the world has come to. And hopefully that will be a start, for all of us to get off our ass and reach out to others and make a good difference.

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This song reflects makes a strong statement not only for the president of the United States but every persons being, every other dirty politician, every person in power, taking advantage of their position, stealing, and as the song says, paving their way to hell.

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I don't know, but for me, this song is a reminder that the world is much bigger than us. That there's just so much out there if only we take the time to look.

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http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/11661343

Sadness

Last night, I had myself a good cry.

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I've been feeling really down for the past few days. And it doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I'm broke or that I haven't been well for the past two weeks...well, maybe a little bit. But seriously, for the past few days now I find myself thinking about things.

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I thought about the people that I've lost, why I've lost them. The choices I have made, the person I am today. The discontentment that I feel, what it would be like to just walk away from it all.

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Whatever it is that has been bothering me, I hope I get over it soon.

Movin Up!

sunset outside my window

I spent the weekend moving to my new apartment. It wasn't as painful as I thought it would be since my friends came over to help. I was quite lucky since I didn't have to move that far and unpacking turned out ok. I'm now trying to settle in, it's still difficult to sleep at night since I'm not used to the place and I keep getting up every two hours. Don't you just hate that?! I mean, I don't get enough sleep as it is and now I have to worry about adjusting to the new place.

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I threw out a lot of my junk and it feels good. I feel lighter somehow. I look forward to somewhat being able to settle in. My problem really is that secretly, I have this thing about attachments. I don't like getting attached to anything or anyone. I feel like I have to be able to go anywhere and leave everything without anything holding me down.

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Maybe someday I will be able to analyze it and find a way to get over it. But for now, I'm simply content with what it is I have...or don't have for that matter.

Choices

"We are confronted with choices everyday, they are not always easy, or safe, but each choice that is placed before us has the potential to shape us into the people that we were created to be."

20 Ways to Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity

1. At lunch time, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.

2. Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.

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3. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.

4. Put your garbage can on your desk and label it "In."

5. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addictions, switch to Espresso.

6. In the memo field of all your checks, write "For sexual favors"

7. Finish all your sentences with "in accordance with the prophecy."

8. Dont use any punctuation

9. As often as possible, skip rather than walk.

10. Ask people what sex they are. Laugh hysterically after they answer.

11. Specify that your drive-through order is "To go."

12. Sing along at the opera.

13. Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme

14. Put mosquito netting around your work area and play tropical sounds all day.

15. Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.

16. Have your co-workers address you by your wrestling name, Rock Hard.

17. When the money comes out the ATM, scream "I won!, I won!"

18. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling "run for your lives, they're loose!!"

19. Tell your children over dinner, "Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go."

20. Share this list with someone else to make them smile..Its called therapy...

Touch & Go (Part 2)

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Yes, the end is always inevitable. That's also one thing I learned, and I'm pretty sure everyone knows this too. Yet we still continue to start new relationships that we know will have their finales, one way or another. It's one of those never-ending cycles of life that we have to learn how to deal with. Like I said, people are social beings.Relationships are essential to one's survival.
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So how does one deal with the end of a relationship? It's quite simple actually. You just have to go on living your life like you've always had before you entered it. Anyway, you have survived all these years prior to it, right? It's just that simple! But in reality, it's always easier said than done.
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Once I was in this relationship, which I knew could never be, thinking that if I knew what's going to happen, I'd already know what to do. So when the time for closure comes, it would be a lot easier to deal with because I am prepared. Well, it ended all right, as expected. But what I didn't expect was what happened in between, and the sadness that comes after it. Oh, and don't forget the memories. those damn memories, so overwhelming, it haunted me every second of every day. for a while that is. After some time, I guess you could say I was back to normal. But for me, everything else became different then.
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They say time heals all wounds. I say that's nothing but hypocritical bull' that we just say to ourselves to create this illusion that we've moved on with our lives and that we're better off now than before. But if you think about it, when you remember old times, it brings back the pain and the sadness that you once had, especially for those people who like to cling to the past. Then comes the what-ifs and what-could've-beens, which makes you hope that you can bring back the past, or make you wish that you shouldn't have let it happen in the first place. Ah yes. Regrets. Now that's adding insult to injury. It is for this reason that people are afraid to enter a relationship again. For the most part, it is because it's something that they are always afraid to lose. I should know`cause I was that kind of person. I was such a sentimental fool.
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Time heals all wounds. I used to believe in that too. But as I continue learning, I finally believed otherwise. Time can only make you wiser. not to mention older (and I hated that fact). It's like the scab that protects the wound as it heals. But once scratched off, the wound bleeds again, and the cut grows even deeper. If anything, I believe it is love. Yes LOVE, not time, which heals all wounds. If you believe that you have the capacity to love again (and I'm not just speaking of romantic love), that's the only time you'll know you're completely healed. When you learn the value of true love, you will never be afraid to touch more lives and you can go on living amidst the scars that you've gotten from your past. When that happens, and you try to reminisce those intricate relationships you've had with people, you'd just find it all as funny. and that's all there is to it.
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Life they say is touch and go. In life, we'll always be in and out of relationships with people... people who could be there for only some time. Some of them might stray. But most of them will eventually go away.
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But remember this: Only those people who truly love you who will always try to find ways to stay. I guess I still am a sentimental fool after all.

Touch & Go (Part 1)

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There truly comes a time in a person's life when you realize that life is indeed just touch and go.

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We try to look back at the things that happened in our past and reminisce the intricate web of relationships we've had with people. Then in the middle of daydreaming, we would stop and ask ourselves, "Where are they now?" It's funny when you think about it, that at one point in your life you have been really close with a person you always thought you knew very well inside out. The next thing you know, you don't even have the slightest clue on what's going on with that person anymore. Or if they even think of you still. Funny. Yes. Funny but sad at the same time. It's a fact that no man is an island. People are social beings and they need to interact with others in order to survive. I am a person; therefore I am a social being. I loved being with people. I loved making friends. And most of all, I love getting into different sorts of relationships, touching lives and being touched by them in the process.

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Yes, I was socially inclined. and I still am, but now just in a downgraded fashion. I suddenly found myself, turning down invitations to gimmicks or parties, whereas I used to be always game. I guess as time passes by, it seems to get harder and harder to involve yourself with just anybody, may it be a new acquaintance, a new friend, or a new love interest. I guess experience teaches you that. But some people just never learn. Well, I learned my lesson.

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I started learning at the tender age of ten. While all the other kids my age don't even care about anything else but playtime, that young I was forced to grow up immaturely. Learning the painful way that not all people are to be trusted. They may seem good to you and you may think they know better, but I realized that that doesn't really matter. Because when you know better, consequently, you know worse. And people can take advantage of the better to do the worse. With that known, I never trusted anybody but myself. So much so that when I interact with people, I always have my guard up, thinking at the back of my head that they always have a hidden agenda in mind.

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True enough, I guess people always have hidden agendas when dealing with others. Maybe they just don't realize it, or maybe they just do it subconsciously. And I admit I am like that too. But as I grew, I learned that not all these hidden agendas are bad. They can work to your benefit, and that usually happens both ways. That's how relationships should work, right? Sadly though, they almost always never work that way. And if that's not bad enough, they end up in a mess.

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to be continued..

A day in the Office

"Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Cuehlo

Everything tells me that I am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back to where I came from because I didn’t have the courage to say “yes” to life?

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I’ve realized that sometimes you get no second chance and that it’s best to accept the gifts the world offers you. If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, to be faithful to myself. If I’m looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre love out of my system. The little experience of life I’ve had has taught me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion – and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.

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And if nothing belongs to me, then there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine; it’s best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.

Kids!

I spent the weekend with my niece. She's 7 years old, she practically grew up with me. She's really smart and funny. She likes books about greek mythology and egyptology. Ask her about Tutankhamen and Cleopatra and she could go on and on and on.

Anyway, last friday we were in a bookstore when her mom handed me a book about a prince or something like that (I wasn't interested so I don't remember). But then my niece, in all her panic, said noooo! You can't read that! You might fall in love and you can't fall in love!

Well, I said what do you think Love is?

I could see in her eyes that she was contemplating whether to answer me truthfully or not.

She decided to strike a deal. She said " I will tell you what I think but only what I think ok. It's not the real answer but you have to promise not to tell anyone."

She said " I think love is magic. But some people, like when the husbands are cheating on the moms, they think love stinks!"

Then she goes, what about you? What do you think is the meaning of love?

I almost panicked. I didn't have an answer. What can I say to a 7 year old kid without showing how jaded I've become? and without affecting what she thought? Did I want her not to think that love stinks? Or do I confirm that love does stink?

It's a good thing her mom walked in on us at that moment. I changed the subject. But until now, I keep thinking what I would have answered.

What is the answer? I don't know.

Funny

I live beside a mini-mall. More like a big supermarket with cinemas and stuff.
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On my way home last night, I checked out the board that listed the movies currently showing.
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The first movie on the list was a movie called "Lick".
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I wondered what was that movie and thought that it sort of had a funny name for a real movie. An x-rated movie maybe...
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That's when I realized that it was missing a letter. The letter "C".
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Apparently the new movie of Adam Sandler "Click" is now called "Lick".
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Haha!

Last Night

I had a dream last night, and I can't get it out of my head.
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It was so vivid i thought it was really happening but I remember actually thinking that it was only a dream. Imagine that, even in my dreams the cynic in me never fails to show itself. I remember the feelings inside me though. I remember trying to analyze them. I felt intrigued by what was going on around me and at the same time I felt insecure, so much so that I hesitated in confronting him and confronting my fears. Most of the time I deny my insecurities when I'm awake, but I guess you can never escape the truth.
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Seriously though, it was a very cheesy, my dream. I remember that the man was a pilot, quite ridiculous since I don't know any at all. I was with my friend and I was looking at him (the pilot). We were in some kind of aircraft, a plane most probably since it looked like one but it felt more like a building than a plane. He was securing the place and making sure that the people were ok. We looked at each other and I knew what he was thinking. I'm not going to say what it was and risk sounding even more stupid but it felt like I was being challenged to believe and risk all that is important to me. Weird! Then I was back in my apartment, a different one from where I live now but I knew it was my place. He was siiting in his car outside, I would say just like a stalker. Haha! But not really. Anyway, I will stop there as I would really like to keep the details to myself.

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I am writing about this because for some reason, and I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but usually my dreams happen in real life. Not right away though, usually about 2 or 3 years later. Not all of them, thank God as I remember I used to have a recurring dream about being chased by a killer! The other time I dreamt I was in this wedding and this girl warned me that I shouldn't pursue something that wasn't meant for me. I worried a bit about that but quickly forgot about it.

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Oh well.

A Statement

A friend sent me this today, and I thought I'd like to share it.

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As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

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Don't be afraid that your life will end,be afraid that it will never begin.

Things I've Learned

I've learned...

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that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

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I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.

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I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

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I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big dick or huge tits.

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I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more fucked up than you think.

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I've learned that you can keep puking long after you think you're finished.

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I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

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I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place.

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I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones who do.

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I've learned that we don't have to ditch bad friends because their dysfunction makes us feel better about ourselves.

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I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get arrested and end up in the local paper.

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I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

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I've learned to say "Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke" in 6 languages.

Thank God it's Friday!

Halleluyah!
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I've got another date with the dentist tomorrow. I'm trlling you, she's draining me man! When oh when will this be over?!

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I'm really just glad that the week is over though. I have to find myself a new apartment and pack my stuff but that's ok. I'll figure it out. I always have. Besides, I don't exactly have a choice. I have to find a new place or be homeless. It really is stupid of me coz I should've just fixed it so the lease on my current apartment would end by next year instead I fucked up.
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Whatever!
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My motto is never get yourself in a mess you can't get out of. So I know that I will post a picture of my new empty apartment here soon and this problem will be soon behind me.
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Hasta mañana! I hope I have a great weekend!

What is a bastard?

I was surfing around and found this from jokemail. I find it quite hilarious so I thought I'd share it with you.
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I'm still trying to get a hang of this blogging since I'm not exactly tech savvy, but here's the link in case you need a laugh.
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http://jokemail.blogspot.com/
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Quite often we ask ourselves hard to answer questions like,
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“What is a bastard?”
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And we wax philosophic with metaphysical postulations, incomplete aphorisms, and inconsistent sophisms that make one more and more sure that the only true thing is that a picture is worth a thousand words.

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In this photo, the guy on the right is a member of a bomb squad in the middle of a deactivation.
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The guy behind him, well, he's a bastard.

Step Up!

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Ok I can't help it. I'm a dance movie freak and it helps too that I think Channing Tatum is really really hot!

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I can't wait till the movie comes out! In the meantime, I settle for watching the movie trailer about 10 times a day! Ok, I'm exaggerating. I do have better things to do than drool over Channing my love! But I must admit, it's very very tempting.

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http://au.movies.yahoo.com/Step+Up/movie/15617/